taken away

"forget about me" think its easy, its not. I fell inlove with you. I knew what i was getting into. I was getting into me fighting for someone, someone who would take all the problems away. Its more of a sweep me off of my feet kind of thing. I wanted those relationships when family would get involved, surprisingly, it happened. You and i made us happen. Arguments came along here and there.. but that here and there became all the time. Id never tell you anything because youd judge me, go deny it. But its what got me here. This feeling, of nothing. Hopelessly nothing. Im mentally, physically sick, tired and broken. I cant feel anything, im not happy. I miss me. I miss us, befre when nothign else mattered except how much we would fight together.. but you left me hanging. Id fight for you, all the time, id run back to you, just to have you to myself, id try my best to look and treat yyou the way yuo wantd to be treated.. all thse times your exs didnt. I wanted to fill in the blanks. It took two to tango, but i held you too close that i was basically hurting myself by putting my feelings aside just for yours. I forced myself, to pretend as if everything was okay. When i said i loved you, i did. Believe me or not, i wanted to be with you forever. All i wanted you to see was the mistakes that you've done. i wanted you to come to a realization on your own, not just when i tell you too. You got me to fall deeply inlove with you, so you have got to know how to treat me. I have faults too, and i regret them so much. But for now, our time, is to have space. For ourselves, it may seem to suck now, but for the long run, were not just pretending anymore. I hve no reason to hate you, but myself for trying to ignore what i cldnt feel. Im sorry i lied, and im sorry i wasnt good enough.