ill be there.

I think its pretty cool that ive finally realized that ive been pretty much independent with all the bs thats happened in my life. Honestly, from time to time, i still act like such a baby and cry about it. I guess, im getting there, pretty fast? but taking baby steps. Well atleast, small steps. I know, im not perfect and im not supergirl.. thats why ive got my close friends who are always there to lend me a shoulder to cry/lean on. For a fact, i know that i havent been sucha great friend to them either. Im so selfish -_-" homg. hahaha! it was just that, i didnt want to think about how great it was back then, and think about how it is now. Yeha, you guys are meeting new people, and you guys are moving on and growing up. Its just, when you guys said that youre moving on. I thought that you guys meant " moving on " like getting new close friends and forgetting about me. Idk, i was scared. Like, im a daddys girl.. LOL when i was younger and i first heard my mom and pops fighting. I was soo scared of letting one of them go. Finding out that my dad was leaving hurt so much. My heart just sanked to the floor, i couldnt stop crying for days. When he would come by and pick up the rest of his stuff up, id just stay by the door crying, trying to get his attention. Didnt work, so id hopp onto his leg and hold his leg so tight! that he would start laughing, because he had a tickle spot there (haha! funny, i know) he would smile at me, tell me that he will always love me and come visit (in tagalog). I didnt care what he said, i just didnt want him to leave. It hurt so much, watching someone just leave like that after you held on for so long. So yeah, thats how ive been feeling. Left alone i guess. Im afraid of holding onto you guys hella tight because i dont want to cry anymore. But, just know that, no matter what happens.. like you guys have been there for me, ill always be there